Dear Baby Boy Grayson,

I have wanted to keep up a blog for you during my pregnancy as a friend I met through a pregnancy support group was doing. I obviously have failed as I am 30 weeks pregnant and this is the first entry. I refrained from writing to you because I have been so sick and miserable being pregnant. I did not want you to think I was not grateful for you or loved you. My friend who gave me the idea of this blog lost her baby girl, Stevie Joy almost 3 weeks ago. She was 25 weeks pregnant and had to deliver her baby girl whose heart had stopped beating. When I first heard the news I could do nothing but cry and cry literally for hours. I could not imagine the pain she was going though. But oddly enough through her story and her blog of writing to her baby girl I have inspiration and a new outlook I did not have before.

I cherish every little kick of yours, even when it is to my bladder and I already have to pee. I cherish the getting up every hour and a half at night to pee. I even, though never thought I would say it, but I cherish the nausea I get because it reminds me I am still pregnant. I think the last 3 weeks my pregnancy complaints are nothing compared to what they were before. I have been forever blessed and grateful for you since day one, but was wanting the pregnancy to go quick so I would stop being so miserable and sick. After reading Kristin's journey I know appreciate the time I have with you in my tummy and the bonding we get to do for another 2 months. I am no longer in a rush to have you out of me. This is not to say I do not want to meet you, cause I do more than you know, but for now I cherish the kicks and rolls into my ribs, and other sometimes painful body parts.

Not only have I been able to love and appreciate you and this pregnancy more Grayson, but I think so has your Daddy. He has touched my belly more over the last few weeks and even gives you kisses. One day I will be able to tell you the story of my amazing friend Kristin and Stevie Joy and how much there lives impacted me and my love for you Grayson!!

Mommy and Daddy both love you and are blessed to have a chance to get to know you!